This is a problem that must be solved.
I refuse to get fatter as I get older. I mean, shit, I'm a person who consumes sweets and junk food in moderation and drinks beer and wine (generally) in moderation (at home). But these things, out of my house they will go entirely. I have had enough. Too much, apparently. And I'm
I cook healthy meals from whole and organic ingredients. I rarely eat meals in restaurants and I bring my lunches to work (I have lunch out maybe once a week). And I don't feel like I eat too much. But still. Double-you tee eff. I guess I have to learn to read the difference between hunger and craving a little better. How depressing... I really like seconds.
I'm gonna have to learn to deal, 'cause these 10 pounds are coming off one way or another. I have seen damn near zero results in the last 2 weeks, so I figure I'd best step it up a notch. So goodbye, pasta and thin mint cookies. You were never really my friends anyway.
As my friend Lazy Lightning says, it's not really an issue at this point, it's vanity. But if trends continue, as they tend to do for most people, it becomes an issue quickly. So, to vanity I gladly succumb.
Nevertheless, even if last summer's jeans don't fit, I'm glad to be here now with 10 more pounds on me and not, well... there... then. I'm in a much better place mentally, and despite the spare tire, much happier with myself, my job, my friends. All these things are NOT worth trading to fit in some dumb old pants.
It can be especially scary for me because, well, I've been unfit before. I was one of those kids in high school who skipped the PE requirement by satisfying it with IT and band/choir classes. I played JV tennis and softball only because I wanted desperately to somehow be cool. I never really did anything athletic until college and then instead of gaining the freshman 15 I lost the freshman 20. Whenever I assess my weight there's always a bit of fear of backsliding into the place I was mentally when I was heavier. It was a bad place to be and thankfully I can't think of anything that would convince me to feel so awful about myself again, weight-gain or otherwise. And I certainly have no intention of returning to a sedentary lifestyle EVER. But there's that nagging, irrational voice that associates weight with self-worth and still lives someplace in the dark, pre-college days. The voice whimpers, "FLEE! FLEE!!" I know it's dumb, but there it is.
Still, I value my health, I value setting personal goals, and I value self-control. So into the blog these thoughts go, to solidify them for my own goal-setting. And off to the gym I go for a little sweating.
Monday I start Boot Camp, which runs for 9 weeks and should be plenty of time in which to meet and exceed these goals. No worries, I have a physical therapy consult to check on my gimpy knee. With luck, it will just be IT band issues and I can hut-hut-hut away with the best of 'em.
Posted on May 30, 2007 @ 6:06 PM | 12 comments
Comments:
Hmm. Reminds me of Tuesday morning, trying on pair after pair of dress pants and skirt after skirt after skirt, eventually resorting to wearing the biggest skirt I own because the rest? Well most fit OK.. but not OK enough to walk out in to PUBLIC in, let alone go do anything important! Good luck to you. I've a similar resolution to keep!
By 
LazyLightning, at
7:40 PM, May 30, 2007
I always thought the "partner system" for goal-setting was super dorky. But hey, I'm willing to give it a try if you are. Maybe Rachel will go in with us too. ;) Let's keep our asses accountable!
TEEHEE
*jumps up and down like an oprah-watching stay-at-home-mom who just found a diet buddy*
By 
Kat, at
8:29 PM, May 30, 2007
I'm in. Because I could have written this post. My body feels awful. Too busy, no exercise yesterday, today, or tomorrow. My workout plan is waiting in my email inbox. My pants don't fit.
I have become that person whose habits I loathe. This is going to be an awkward trip out. Imma need all the support I can get.
I was gonna slack it off for dinner tonight, but I did have the thought to say: "no, good food starts right now, in the present". So I made a nice healthy pasta, sauce, and a salad.
Ugh, I don't want to be commenting on how much food I ate and how my pants don't fit. I feel like a lamer. But that's the reality of it.
By Rachel, at
11:09 PM, May 30, 2007
Experts actually say snacking is good. Just make it healthy and reduce the next meal by a similar amount of calories.
By running42k, at
4:25 AM, May 31, 2007
i'm feeling exactly the same. pants that fit a year ago, well... and yet i'm not huge now. just bigger than i was then and i'm not liking it. i'm in!
By zerodoll, at
5:58 AM, May 31, 2007
We can DO IT!!
Honestly my big problem is snacking on bad foods. Ice cream, candies, chips, etc. Yesterday I did well by putting down a candy after thinking "this will make me happy for about 10 minutes... but how will I feel later? or tomorrow?" That actually worked and caused me to assess my needs and eat something better (a fat free yogurt).
By lazylightning, at
7:09 AM, May 31, 2007
zerodoll- hi, and hurrah!
running42k- I definitely agree with this. I'm slightly hypoglycemic so I have to snack between meals or I risk becoming a non-functional mess. I just have a tendency to snack constantly because I'm orally fixated and I need something to do with my mouth. (LOL) This is bad, bad, bad at my work where there's always free (and generally unhealthy) snacks sitting around. So I got some carrot sticks, yogurt, and bananas and I will put these within arm's reach. Word.
By , at
7:59 AM, May 31, 2007
Buy some nice trail mix too. Great snack food and mixed with yogurt, very good.
By running42k, at
10:59 AM, May 31, 2007
Kat you are putting voice to the very same thoughts that have been lurking in my head since I've realized how much weight I've gained since surgery. Looking at the pictures from the BBQ the other night was FRIGHTENING. Someting must.change.now. I'm all for excercise/diet buddies and being all lame and fat-feeling together. Ok, I think I'm going to go watch Oprah.
By , at
3:54 PM, May 31, 2007
Hey you know what would be easier than this weight loss stuff? Just start wearing REALLY, REALLY BIG SWEATERS like you did in that pic you linked to. (I was the same way in H.S.) Because if you're wearing a 2XL sweater, no one can see your muffin top right?
By lazylightning, at
7:25 PM, May 31, 2007
You tried to lose weight WHILE eating thin mints? The public is not as dumb as your english professor.
By memphsphil, at
3:00 AM, June 03, 2007
Huh? I did no such thing-- the point I was trying to make was that I've got some of those cookies in my freezer and they're a tempting snack. I haven't actually been noshing on them, but I suppose I didn't make that clear. I'm more or less just resenting their existence.
By Kat, at
11:14 AM, June 03, 2007
